One Year Out traces one terrible, beautiful year through addiction, public rehab, and mental unravelling — then an unexpected move to Bali where recovery collides with wellness coaches and influencers selling healing by the gram.

In a series of confessional, funny and honest essays, Charlotte Bell writes about what addiction does to a body and a conscience: the institutions, the friendships, the rejection and the small rituals of strangers keeping each other alive.

Moving between Aotearoa and Indonesia, this collection holds the messy, often absurd distance between falling apart and finding some new way to hold together.